Excerpt From An Email

....I think you're feeling weird. I am too and has to be because of this weather. Every time I open the car door I feel nostalgic like some old crush is driving towards me. It renders me dumb like an unsuspecting guest. I want to say no but hug anyways. Immediately, I feel guilty.

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I've been trying to express this for two weeks now. It finally drew itself out in an email.